5/31/2023
I ponderedโฆis hope an optimist? A pessimist? Maybe both?
I concluded that optimism and pessimism are of this world. They usher polarization, a spotlight that we are in the world, not of it.
Hope comes from beyond-a buoyancy, not a boundary.
And hope is good.
5/18/2023
We live in a world that low base teaches us that the loudest, most aggressive woman wins. Paired with church messages of a Proverbs 31 wife standard of perfectionism, you end up with a world of women feeling weary, worn, less than, defeated.
Iโve wondered if the โrealโ Proverbs 31 wife would shake her head-
5/17/2023
Courage is fear that has said its prayers and believes that God is always able.
5/15/2023
He was two weeks old when we knew heโd be our outdoorsy kiddo. Warm autumn breezes are his favorite. Even as an infant, heโd look up at his mama & smile, relax & close his eyes with chin lifted to the sun. Heโs our rainbow baby, the unexpected blessing we didnโt see coming.
But, summer heat storms used toโฆ
5/13/2023
Lucky and blessed are not the same thing. What some people call luck might better be called an unexpected-๐ป๐๐ ๐๐พ๐ ๐ผ๐๐๐พ๐ฝ-blessing.
Instead of loving the things you want, look around & start loving what you have. I promise and pinky swear, itโll change your life.
5/12/2023
When hugging your children, donโt be the first one to let go. Theyโll let go when they are ready-be sensitive to what they are sharing.
Sometimes they start hugging back tighter, because thatโs what their hearts are needing.
4/23/2023
I read a quote once that said (๐๐บ๐๐บ๐๐๐๐บ๐๐พ๐ฝ), ๐ป๐ผ ๐ผ๐ป๐ฒ ๐๐ถ๐น๐น ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ฐ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฎ๐ ๐ฎ ๐น๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐น ๐ต๐ถ๐ด๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ป ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ฐ๐ ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ๐๐ฒ๐น๐ณ. The quote is a play on words from a translated Confucius quote, a thought provocation on how you view yourself, the nuts and bolts and worth you believe you hold in the core of who you are.
I counter it with this: ๐ถ๐ง๐ฎ ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ค๐ฒ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฃ ๐ฒ๐ ๐ธ ๐ธ๐ฎ๐ด ๐ ๐ฑ๐ค? Deep down, what message do you speak over yourself about your identity in Christ?
4/1/2023
Thereโs this space between what is and what will be-a pause, gap, breath, selah, Yahweh. A bridge called grace waits with open arms.
It can feel like waiting, a gap that divides.
3/21/2023
Getting to know myself has been one of the most eye opening experiences.
It looked like courage and grit, and it was; but, how it felt was more like being lost, then found. It looked nothing like I thought and managed to offer everything I needed.
Courage comes first, then grit. Daily sitting withโฆ
3/18/2023
a Saturday morning prayer
Gracious Lord, I hold myself captive in cautious apprehension, quicksand at red flags instead of walking past them. Empathy fighting timid apathy, brittled and worn. And You bring spring, warm breezes, blooms, fresh breath. You remind over and over that seasons change, the seeds You plant in our hearts are meant to grow us slow steady closer to You. Slow and steady, empathy strengthens and steadies, standing taller, stepping forward. Amen & amen.
3/13/2023
Gracious Lord,
Iโm certain You know my heart, how some days I have more questions than answers. You nod & listen. I hold my breath wanting more calm than chaos, spin wheels seeking instead of resting in Your shelter. And I ask, can my daily habits be a form of worship? An intentional daily choice to seek You at each touch point in the day? To shelter in Your calm to calm the chaotic. Maybe itโll feel a wrestling at first, learning to maintain constant daily contact until it is a constant dwelling within the shadow of Your almighty. And You whisper, โcome.โ
Amen & amen.
3/10/2023
TRUST THE PROCESS-
How many times have you heard that?
The first time I heard it, we were two weeks into our home education journey. It was 2009. There werenโt social media-based homeschool groups. The juggle of full-time work, being a homeschool newbie, & pregnancy bedrest left me feeling frazzly, even on good dayโฆ
3/8/2023
Gracious Lord,
It feels like two steps forward cause me to stumble one back. I look down and see how Iโm tripping over stones You already rolled away. My feet snagging on worry, frets of failure. Remind me to keep going, to look to You-worries change to worship. You polish sharp stones to small pebbles.
Amen & amen.
3/6/2023
Your soul wants to grow-and soul growth sets shivers to demons. Make no mistake, satan relishes the idea of making your earthly life an earthly hell.
Breathe this in-your daily soul growth may be a fight, but this story will end good.
Seeds want to grow. Put nourishment to them, theyโll thrive. Feed the seed of hopeful courage daily. Nourish your soul in scripture consistently, clear entertaining distractions, clarity on your next right step will come.
3/5/2023
Gracious Lord,
Sometimes I feel busted broken, weary worn. And You still open doors. Can You forgive my ways, the way Iโve focus more on storms than the Savior? How naive I see more thunder and lightning than Your sustaining salvation? And maybe thatโs why You bring storms, to bring washing skies where rainbows can be clearly seen.
Amen & amen.
6/18/2022
Six word memoir:
6/17/2022
6/16/2002
6/14/2002
Some days, I hunt and hunt for specimens.
6/11/2002
Poem: Hope is the thing with feathersโฆ(a poem selection written by Emily Dickinson)