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I grew up with immense admiration for my great grandmother. Suzie was poised energy, accomplished and adored. When someone commented that they had never seen Suzie cry (even though I had secretly witnessed her shedding tears behind a partially closed door), I mimicked her battle plan as my battle cry. I pushed down hidden fears and tears for three decades.

the reminder of pearls
๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ, สแดแดสสส ๐ฐ๐๐ง๐ญ๐๐ ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ฆ๐. . . I was pretty sure that she had it ๐๐๐ together and had life figured out. I took her ๐๐๐ก-๐ ๐-๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ advice and slowly started changing the core of who I was to fit โ๐๐ ideals; I thought thatโs what good girls do, you know? Our relationship was still fairly new and I watched her closely. She knew how to carry a room with her laughter, hadโฆ

retrospection
We came to a pandemic.
As an enneagram six, I pondered all the worst case scenarios and plotted statistics into my autoimmune survival plan. I stocked up, sheltered in, ready for the long haul.

heated climate observation
Todayโs nature walk brought us to watching two bird nests. Wonderment & wide eyes watching, looking & listening for four little birds destined to chirp beauty nestled within twigs of hope. We noted their location & vowed to quietly observe & check on them frequently without scaring mama bird away.

every tall tree first had toโฆ
๐๐โ๐ซ๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐๐ฒ๐๐ซ๐๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐๐ข๐ซ๐ญ.
Lษชแดแดสแด สษชแดs แดษดแด แดษชแดแดแดs แดสแดแด สแดแด แด สแดแดษด แดษด ษชษดแดแดษขสแดส แดแดสแด แดา แดกสแดแด สแดสแด s แดสแด สแดแดแดs แดา แดกสแด แดกแด แดสแด ษชษด แดสแดแดแด.
What we have to remember is that the dirt can either 1.) nourish us or 2.) make us a muddy mess depending on how we approach it.